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Amour Dure: Passages from the Diary of Spiridion
Trepka
Urbania, August 20th, 1885.--I had longed, these years and years, to be
in Italy, to come face to face with the Past; and was this Italy, was this
the Past? I could have cried, yes cried, for disappointment when I first
wandered about Rome, with an invitation to dine at the German Embassy in
my pocket, and three or four Berlin and Munich Vandals at my heels,
telling me where the best beer and sauerkraut could be had, and what the
last article by Grimm or Mommsen was about.
Is this folly? Is it falsehood? Am I not myself a product of modern,
northern civilisation; is not my coming to Italy due to this very modern
scientific vandalism, which has given me a travelling scholarship because
I have written a book like all those other atrocious books of erudition
and art-criticism? Nay, am I not here at Urbania on the express
understanding that, in a certain number of months, I shall produce just
another such book? Dost thou imagine, thou miserable Spiridion, thou Pole
grown into the semblance of a German pedant, doctor of philosophy,
professor even, author of a prize essay on the despots of the fifteenth
century, dost thou imagine that thou, with thy ministerial letters and
proof-sheets in thy black professorial coat-pocket, canst ever come in
spirit into the presence of the Past?
Too true, alas! But let me forget it, at least, every now and then; as
I forgot it this afternoon, while the white bullocks dragged my gig slowly
winding along interminable valleys, crawling along interminable
hill-sides, with the invisible droning torrent far below, and only the
bare grey and reddish peaks all around, up to this town of Urbania,
forgotten of mankind, towered and battlemented on the high Apennine ridge.
Sigillo, Penna, Fossombrone, Mercatello, Montemurlo--each single village
name, as the driver pointed it out, brought to my mind the recollection of
some battle or some great act of treachery of former days. And as the huge
mountains shut out the setting sun, and the valleys filled with bluish
shadow and mist, only a band of threatening smoke-red remaining behind the
towers and cupolas of the city on its mountain-top, and the sound of
church bells floated across the precipice from Urbania, I almost expected,
at every turning of the road, that a troop of horsemen, with beaked
helmets and clawed shoes, would emerge, with armour glittering and pennons
waving in the sunset. And then, not two hours ago, entering the town at
dusk, passing along the deserted streets, with only a smoky light here and
there under a shrine or in front of a fruit-stall, or a fire reddening the
blackness of a smithy; passing beneath the battlements and turrets of the
palace.... Ah, that was Italy, it was the Past!
August 21st.--And this is the Present! Four letters of introduction to
deliver, and an hour's polite conversation to endure with the
Vice-Prefect, the Syndic, the Director of the Archives, and the good man
to whom my friend Max had sent me for lodgings....
August 22nd-27th.--Spent the greater part of the day in the Archives,
and the greater part of my time there in being bored to extinction by the
Director thereof, who to-day spouted ®neas Sylvius' Commentaries for
three-quarters of an hour without taking breath. From this sort of
martyrdom (what are the sensations of a former racehorse being driven in a
cab? If you can conceive them, they are those of a Pole turned Prussian
professor) I take refuge in long rambles through the town. This town is a
handful of tall black houses huddled on to the top of an Alp, long narrow
lanes trickling down its sides, like the slides we made on hillocks in our
boyhood, and in the middle the superb red brick structure, turreted and
battlemented, of Duke Ottobuono's palace, from whose windows you look down
upon a sea, a kind of whirlpool, of melancholy grey mountains. Then there
are the people, dark, bushy-bearded men, riding about like brigands,
wrapped in green-lined cloaks upon their shaggy pack-mules; or loitering
about, great, brawny, low-headed youngsters, like the parti-coloured
bravos in Signorelli's frescoes; the beautiful boys, like so many young
Raphaels, with eyes like the eyes of bullocks, and the huge women,
Madonnas or St. Elizabeths, as the case may be, with their clogs firmly
poised on their toes and their brass pitchers on their heads, as they go
up and down the steep black alleys. I do not talk much to these people; I
fear my illusions being dispelled. At the corner of a street, opposite
Francesco di Giorgio's beautiful little portico, is a great blue and red
advertisement, representing an angel descending to crown Elias Howe, on
account of his sewing-machines; and the clerks of the Vice-Prefecture, who
dine at the place where I get my dinner, yell politics, Minghetti, Cairoli,
Tunis, ironclads, &c., at each other, and sing snatches of La Fille de
Mme. Angot, which I imagine they have been performing here recently.
No; talking to the natives is evidently a dangerous experiment. Except
indeed, perhaps, to my good landlord, Signor Notaro Porri, who is just as
learned, and takes considerably less snuff (or rather brushes it off his
coat more often) than the Director of the Archives. I forgot to jot down
(and I feel I must jot down, in the vain belief that some day these scraps
will help, like a withered twig of olive or a three-wicked Tuscan lamp on
my table, to bring to my mind, in that hateful Babylon of Berlin, these
happy Italian days)--I forgot to record that I am lodging in the house of
a dealer in antiquities. My window looks up the principal street to where
the little column with Mercury on the top rises in the midst of the
awnings and porticoes of the market-place. Bending over the chipped ewers
and tubs full of sweet basil, clove pinks, and marigolds, I can just see a
corner of the palace turret, and the vague ultramarine of the hills
beyond. The house, whose back goes sharp down into the ravine, is a queer
up-and-down black place, whitewashed rooms, hung with the Raphaels and
Francias and Peruginos, whom mine host regularly carries to the chief inn
whenever a stranger is expected; and surrounded by old carved chairs,
sofas of the Empire, embossed and gilded wedding-chests, and the cupboards
which contain bits of old damask and embroidered altar-cloths scenting the
place with the smell of old incense and mustiness; all of which are
presided over by Signor Porri's three maiden sisters--Sora Serafina, Sora
Lodovica, and Sora Adalgisa--the three Fates in person, even to the
distaffs and their black cats.
Sor Asdrubale, as they call my landlord, is also a notary. He regrets
the Pontifical Government, having had a cousin who was a Cardinal's
train-bearer, and believes that if only you lay a table for two, light
four candles made of dead men's fat, and perform certain rites about which
he is not very precise, you can, on Christmas Eve and similar nights,
summon up San Pasquale Baylon, who will write you the winning numbers of
the lottery upon the smoked back of a plate, if you have previously
slapped him on both cheeks and repeated three Ave Marias. The difficulty
consists in obtaining the dead men's fat for the candles, and also in
slapping the saint before he have time to vanish.
"If it were not for that," says Sor Asdrubale, "the Government would
have had to suppress the lottery ages ago--eh!"
Sept. 9th.--This history of Urbania is not without its romance,
although that romance (as usual) has been overlooked by our Dryasdusts.
Even before coming here I felt attracted by the strange figure of a woman,
which appeared from out of the dry pages of Gualterio's and Padre de
Sanctis' histories of this place. This woman is Medea, daughter of
Galeazzo IV. Malatesta, Lord of Carpi, wife first of Pierluigi Orsini,
Duke of Stimigliano, and subsequently of Guidalfonso II., Duke of Urbania,
predecessor of the great Duke Robert II.
This woman's history and character remind one of that of Bianca
Cappello, and at the same time of Lucrezia Borgia. Born in 1556, she was
affianced at the age of twelve to a cousin, a Malatesta of the Rimini
family. This family having greatly gone down in the world, her engagement
was broken, and she was betrothed a year later to a member of the Pico
family, and married to him by proxy at the age of fourteen. But this match
not satisfying her own or her father's ambition, the marriage by proxy
was, upon some pretext, declared null, and the suit encouraged of the Duke
of Stimigliano, a great Umbrian feudatory of the Orsini family. But the
bridegroom, Giovanfrancesco Pico, refused to submit, pleaded his case
before the Pope, and tried to carry off by force his bride, with whom he
was madly in love, as the lady was most lovely and of most cheerful and
amiable manner, says an old anonymous chronicle. Pico waylaid her litter
as she was going to a villa of her father's, and carried her to his castle
near Mirandola, where he respectfully pressed his suit; insisting that he
had a right to consider her as his wife. But the lady escaped by letting
herself into the moat by a rope of sheets, and Giovanfrancesco Pico was
discovered stabbed in the chest, by the hand of Madonna Medea da Carpi. He
was a handsome youth only eighteen years old.
The Pico having been settled, and the marriage with him declared null
by the Pope, Medea da Carpi was solemnly married to the Duke of Stimig-
liano, and went to live upon his domains near Rome.
Two years later, Pierluigi Orsini was stabbed by one of his grooms at
his castle of Stimigliano, near Orvieto; and suspicion fell upon his
widow, more especially as, immediately after the event, she caused the
murderer to be cut down by two servants in her own chamber; but not before
he had declared that she had induced him to assassinate his master by a
promise of her love. Things became so hot for Medea da Carpi that she fled
to Urbania and threw herself at the feet of Duke Guidalfonso II.,
declaring that she had caused the groom to be killed merely to avenge her
good fame, which he had slandered, and that she was absolutely guiltless
of the death of her husband. The marvellous beauty of the widowed Duchess
of Stimigliano, who was only nineteen, entirely turned the head of the
Duke of Urbania. He affected implicit belief in her innocence, refused to
give her up to the Orsinis, kinsmen of her late husband, and assigned to
her magnificent apartments in the left wing of the palace, among which the
room containing the famous fireplace ornamented with marble Cupids on a
blue ground. Guidalfonso fell madly in love with his beautiful guest.
Hitherto timid and domestic in character, he began publicly to neglect his
wife, Maddalena Varano of Camerino, with whom, although childless, he had
hitherto lived on excellent terms; he not only treated with con- tempt the
admonitions of his advisers and of his suzerain the Pope, but went so far
as to take measures to repudiate his wife, on the score of quite imaginary
ill-conduct. The Duchess Maddalena, unable to bear this treatment, fled to
the convent of the barefooted sisters at Pesaro, where she pined away,
while Medea da Carpi reigned in her place at Urbania, embroiling Duke
Guidalfonso in quarrels both with the powerful Orsinis, who continued to
accuse her of Stimigliano's murder, and with the Varanos, kinsmen of the
injured Duchess Maddalena; until at length, in the year 1576, the Duke of
Urbania, having become suddenly, and not without suspicious circumstances,
a widower, publicly married Medea da Carpi two days after the decease of
his unhappy wife. No child was born of this marriage; but such was the
infatuation of Duke Guidalfonso, that the new Duchess induced him to
settle the inheritance of the Duchy (having, with great difficulty,
obtained the consent of the Pope) on the boy Bartolommeo, her son by
Stimigliano, but whom the Orsinis refused to acknowledge as such,
declaring him to be the child of that Giovanfrancesco Pico to whom Medea
had been married by proxy, and whom, in defence, as she had said, of her
honour, she had assassinated; and this investiture of the Duchy of Urbania
on to a stranger and a bastard was at the expense of the obvious rights of
the Cardinal Robert, Guidalfonso's younger brother.
In May 1579 Duke Guidalfonso died suddenly and mysteriously, Medea
having forbidden all access to his chamber, lest, on his deathbed, he
might repent and reinstate his brother in his rights. The Duchess
immediately caused her son, Bartolommeo Orsini, to be proclaimed Duke of
Urbania, and herself regent; and, with the help of two or three
unscrupulous young men, particularly a certain Captain Oliverotto da Narni,
who was rumoured to be her lover, seized the reins of government with
extraordinary and terrible vigour, marching an army against the Varanos
and Orsinis, who were defeated at Sigillo, and ruthlessly exterminating
every person who dared question the lawfulness of the succession; while,
all the time, Cardinal Robert, who had flung aside his priest's garb and
vows, went about in Rome, Tuscany, Venice--nay, even to the Emperor and
the King of Spain, imploring help against the usurper. In a few months he
had turned the tide of sympathy against the Duchess-Regent; the Pope
solemnly declared the investiture of Bartolommeo Orsini worthless, and
published the accession of Robert II., Duke of Urbania and Count of
Montemurlo; the Grand Duke of Tuscany and the Venetians secretly promised
assistance, but only if Robert were able to assert his rights by main
force. Little by little, one town after the other of the Duchy went over
to Robert, and Medea da Carpi found herself surrounded in the mountain
citadel of Urbania like ascorpion surrounded by flames. (This simile is
not mine, but belongs to Raffaello Gualterio, historiographer to Robert
II.) But, unlike the scorpion, Medea refused to commit suicide. It is
perfectly marvellous how, without money or allies, she could so long keep
her enemies at bay; and Gualterio attributes this to those fatal
fascinations which had brought Pico and Stimigliano to their deaths, which
had turned the once honest Guidalfonso into a villain, and which were such
that, of all her lovers, not one but preferred dying for her, even after
he had been treated with ingratitude and ousted by a rival; a faculty
which Messer Raffaello Gualterio clearly attributed to hellish connivance.
At last the ex-Cardinal Robert succeeded, and triumphantly entered
Urbania in November 1579. His accession was marked by moderation and
clemency. Not a man was put to death, save Oliverotto da Narni, who threw
himself on the new Duke, tried to stab him as he alighted at the palace,
and who was cut down by the Duke's men, crying, "Orsini, Orsini! Medea,
Medea! Long live Duke Bartolommeo!" with his dying breath, although it is
said that the Duchess had treated him with ignominy. The little
Bartolommeo was sent to Rome to the Orsinis; the Duchess, respectfully
confined in the left wing of the palace.
It is said that she haughtily requested to see the new Duke, but that
he shook his head, and, in his priest's fashion, quoted a verse about
Ulysses and the Sirens; and it is remarkable that he persistently refused
to see her, abruptly leaving his chamber one day that she had entered it
by stealth. After a few months a conspiracy was discovered to murder Duke
Robert, which had obviously been set on foot by Medea. But the young man,
one Marcantonio Frangipani of Rome, denied, even under the severest
torture, any complicity of hers; so that Duke Robert, who wished to do
nothing violent, merely transferred the Duchess from his villa at Sant'
Elmo to the convent of the Clarisse in town, where she was guarded and
watched in the closest manner. It seemed impossible that Medea should
intrigue any further, for she certainly saw and could be seen by no one.
Yet she contrived to send a letter and her portrait to one Prinzivalle
degli Ordelaffi, a youth, only nineteen years old, of noble Romagnole
family, and who was betrothed to one of the most beautiful girls of
Urbania. He immediately broke off his engagement, and, shortly afterwards,
attempted to shoot Duke Robert with a holster-pistol as he knelt at mass
on the festival of Easter Day. This time Duke Robert was determined to
obtain proofs against Medea. Prinzivalle degli Ordelaffi was kept some
days without food, then submitted to the most violent tortures, and
finally condemned. When he was going to be flayed with red-hot pincers and
quartered by horses, he was told that he might obtain the grace of
immediate death by confessing the complicity of the Duchess; and the
confessor and nuns of the convent, which stood in the place of execution
outside Porta San Romano, pressed Medea to save the wretch, whose screams
reached her, by confessing her own guilt. Medea asked permission to go to
a balcony, where she could see Prinzivalle and be seen by him. She looked
on coldly, then threw down her embroidered kerchief to the poor mangled
creature. He asked the executioner to wipe his mouth with it, kissed it,
and cried out that Medea was innocent. Then, after several hours of
torments, he died. This was too much for the patience even of Duke Robert.
Seeing that as long as Medea lived his life would be in perpetual danger,
but unwilling to cause a scandal (somewhat of the priest-nature
remaining), he had Medea strangled in the convent, and, what is
remarkable, insisted that only women--two infanticides to whom he remitted
their sentence--should be employed for the deed.
"This clement prince," writes Don Arcangelo Zappi in his life of him,
published in 1725, "can be blamed only for one act of cruelty, the more
odious as he had himself, until released from his vows by the Pope, been
in holy orders. It is said that when he caused the death of the infamous
Medea da Carpi, his fear lest her extraordinary charms should seduce any
man was such, that he not only employed women as executioners, but refused
to permit her a priest or monk, thus forcing her to die unshriven, and
refusing her the benefit of any penitence that may have lurked in her
adamantine heart."
Such is the story of Medea da Carpi, Duchess of Stimigliano Orsini, and
then wife of Duke Guidalfonso II. of Urbania. She was put to death just
two hundred and ninety-seven years ago, December 1582, at the age of
barely seven-and twenty, and having, in the course of her short life,
brought to a violent end five of her lovers, from Giovanfrancesco Pico to
Prinzivalle degli Ordelaffi.
Sept. 20th.--A grand illumination of the town in honour of the taking
of Rome fifteen years ago. Except Sor Asdrubale, my landlord, who shakes
his head at the Piedmontese, as he calls them, the people here are all
Italianissimi. The Popes kept them very much down since Urbania lapsed to
the Holy See in 1645.
Sept. 28th.--I have for some time been hunting for portraits of the
Duchess Medea. Most of them, I imagine, must have been destroyed, perhaps
by Duke Robert II.'s fear lest even after her death this terrible beauty
should play him a trick. Three or four I have, however, been able to
find--one a miniature in the Archives, said to be that which she sent to
poor Prinzivalle degli Ordelaffi in order to turn his head; one a marble
bust in the palace lumber-room; one in a large composition, possibly by
Baroccio, representing Cleopatra at the feet of Augustus. Augustus is the
idealised portrait of Robert II., round cropped head, nose a little awry,
clipped beard and scar as usual, but in Roman dress. Cleopatra seems to
me, for all her Oriental dress, and although she wears a black wig, to be
meant for Medea da Carpi; she is kneeling, baring her breast for the
victor to strike, but in reality to captivate him, and he turns away with
an awkward gesture of loathing. None of these portraits seem very good,
save the miniature, but that is an exquisite work, and with it, and the
suggestions of the bust, it is easy to reconstruct the beauty of this
terrible being. The type is that most admired by the late Renaissance,
and, in some measure, immortalised by Jean Goujon and the French. The face
is a perfect oval, the forehead somewhat over-round, with minute curls,
like a fleece, of bright auburn hair; the nose a trifle over-aquiline, and
the cheek-bones a trifle too low; the eyes grey, large, prominent, beneath
exquisitely curved brows and lids just a little too tight at the corners;
the mouth also, brilliantly red and most delicately designed, is a little
too tight, the lips strained a trifle over the teeth. Tight eyelids and
tight lips give a strange refinement, and, at the same time, an air of
mystery, a somewhat sinister seductiveness; they seem to take, but not to
give. The mouth with a kind of childish pout, looks as if it could bite or
suck like a leech. The complexion is dazzlingly fair, the perfect
transparent roset lily of a red-haired beauty; the head, with hair elabo-
rately curled and plaited close to it, and adorned with pearls, sits like
that of the antique Arethusa on a long, supple, swan-like neck. A curious,
at first rather conventional, artificial-looking sort of beauty,
voluptuous yet cold, which, the more it is contemplated, the more it
troubles and haunts the mind. Round the lady's neck is a gold chain with
little gold lozenges at intervals, on which is engraved the posy or pun
(the fashion of French devices is common in those days), "Amour Dure--Dure
Amour." The same posy is inscribed in the hollow of the bust, and, thanks
to it, I have been able to identify the latter as Medea's portrait. I
often examine these tragic portraits, wondering what this face, which led
so many men to their death, may have been like when it spoke or smiled,
what at the moment when Medea da Carpi fascinated her victims into love
unto death--"Amour Dure--Dure Amour," as runs her device--love that lasts,
cruel love--yes indeed, when one thinks of the fidelity and fate of her
lovers.
Oct. 13th.--I have literally not had time to write a line of my diary
all these days. My whole mornings have gone in those Archives, my
afternoons taking long walks in this lovely autumn weather (the highest
hills are just tipped with snow). My evenings go in writing that
confounded account of the Palace of Urbania which Government requires,
merely to keep me at work at something useless. Of my history I have not
yet been able to write a word.... By the way, I must note down a curious
circumstance mentioned in an anonymous MS. life of Duke Robert, which I
fell upon to-day. When this prince had the equestrian statue of himself by
Antonio Tassi, Gianbologna's pupil, erected in the square of the Corte, he
secretly caused to be made, says my anonymous MS., a silver statuette of
his familiar genius or angel--"familiaris ejus angelus seu genius, quod a
vulgo dicitur idolino"--which statuette or idol, after having been
consecrated by the astrologers--"ab astrologis quibusdam ritibus sacrato"--was
placed in the cavity of the chest of the effigy by Tassi, in order, says
the MS., that his soul might rest until the general Resurrection. This
passage is curious, and to me somewhat puzzling; how could the soul of
Duke Robert await the general Resurrection, when, as a Catholic, he ought
to have believed that it must, as soon as separated from his body, go to
Purgatory? Or is there some semi-pagan superstition of the Renaissance
(most strange, certainly, in a man who had been a Cardinal) connecting the
soul with a guardian genius, who could be compelled, by magic rites ("ab
astrologis sacrato," the MS. says of the little idol), to remain fixed to
earth, so that the soul should sleep in the body until the Day of
Judgment? I confess this story baffles me. I wonder whether such an idol
ever existed, or exists nowadays, in the body of Tassi's bronze effigy?
Oct. 20th.--I have been seeing a good deal of late of the
Vice-Prefect's son: an amiable young man with a love-sick face and a
languid interest in Urbanian history and arch¾ology, of which he is
profoundly ignorant. This young man, who has lived at Siena and Lucca
before his father was promoted here, wears extremely long and tight
trousers, which almost preclude his bending his knees, a stick-up collar
and an eyeglass, and a pair of fresh kid gloves stuck in the breast of his
coat, speaks of Urbania as Ovid might have spoken of Pontus, and complains
(as well he may) of the barbarism of the young men, the officials who dine
at my inn and howl and sing like madmen, and the nobles who drive gigs,
showing almost as much throat as a lady at a ball. This person frequently
entertains me with his amori, past, present, and future; he evidently
thinks me very odd for having none to entertain him with in return; he
points out to me the pretty (or ugly) servant-girls and dressmakers as we
walk in the street, sighs deeply or sings in falsetto behind every
tolerably young-looking woman, and has finally taken me to the house of
the lady of his heart, a great black-moustachioed countess, with a voice
like a fish-crier; here, he says, I shall meet all the best company in
Urbania and some beautiful women--ah, too beautiful, alas! I find three
huge half-furnished rooms, with bare brick floors, petroleum lamps, and
horribly bad pictures on bright wash- ball-blue and gamboge walls, and in
the midst of it all, every evening, a dozen ladies and gentlemen seated in
a circle, vociferating at each other the same news a year old; the younger
ladies in bright yellows and greens, fanning themselves while my teeth
chatter, and having sweet things whispered behind their fans by officers
with hair brushed up like a hedgehog. And these are the women my friend
expects me to fall in love with! I vainly wait for tea or supper which
does not come, and rush home, determined to leave alone the Urbanian beau
monde.
It is quite true that I have no amori, although my friend does not
believe it. When I came to Italy first, I looked out for romance; I
sighed, like Goethe in Rome, for a window to open and a wondrous creature
to appear, "welch mich versengend erquickt." Perhaps it is because Goethe
was a German, accustomed to German Fraus, and I am, after all, a Pole,
accustomed to something very different from Fraus; but anyhow, for all my
efforts, in Rome, Florence, and Siena, I never could find a woman to go
mad about, either among the ladies, chattering bad French, or among the
lower classes, as 'cute and cold as money-lenders; so I steer clear of
Italian womankind, its shrill voice and gaudy toilettes. I am wedded to
history, to the Past, to women like Lucrezia Borgia, Vittoria Accoramboni,
or that Medea da Carpi, for the present; some day I shall perhaps find a
grand passion, a woman to play the Don Quixote about, like the Pole that I
am; a woman out of whose slipper to drink, and for whose pleasure to die;
but not here! Few things strike me so much as the degeneracy of Italian
women. What has become of the race of Faustinas, Marozias, Bianca
Cappellos? Where discover nowadays (I confess she haunts me) another Medea
da Carpi? Were it only possible to meet a woman of that extreme
distinction of beauty, of that terribleness of nature, even if only
potential, I do believe I could love her, even to the Day of Judgment,
like any Oliverotto da Narni, or Frangipani or Prinzivalle.
Oct. 27th.--Fine sentiments the above are for a professor, a learned
man! I thought the young artists of Rome childish because they played
practical jokes and yelled at night in the streets, returning from the
Caffˇ Greco or the cellar in the Via Palombella; but am I not as childish
to the full--I, melancholy wretch, whom they called Hamlet and the Knight
of the Doleful Countenance?
Nov. 5th.--I can't free myself from the thought of this Medea da Carpi.
In my walks, my mornings in the Archives, my solitary evenings, I catch
myself thinking over the woman. Am I turning novelist instead of
historian? And still it seems to me that I understand her so well; so much
better than my facts warrant. First, we must put aside all pedantic modern
ideas of right and wrong. Right and wrong in a century of violence and
treachery does not exist, least of all for creatures like Medea. Go preach
right and wrong to a tigress, my dear sir! Yet is there in the world
anything nobler than the huge creature, steel when she springs, velvet
when she treads, as she stretches her supple body, or smooths her
beautiful skin, or fastens her strong claws into her victim?
Yes; I can understand Medea. Fancy a woman of superlative beauty, of
the highest courage and calmness, a woman of many resources, of genius,
brought up by a petty princelet of a father, upon Tacitus and Sallust, and
the tales of the great Malatestas, of C¾sar Borgia and such-like!--a woman
whose one passion is conquest and empire--fancy her, on the eve of being
wedded to a man of the power of the Duke of Stimigliano, claimed, carried
off by a small fry of a Pico, locked up in his hereditary brigand's
castle, and having to receive the young fool's red-hot love as an honour
and a necessity! The mere thought of any violence to such a nature is an
abominable outrage; and if Pico chooses to embrace such a woman at the
risk of meeting a sharp piece of steel in her arms, why, it is a fair
bargain. Young hound--or, if you prefer, young hero--to think to treat a
woman like this as if she were any village wench! Medea marries her Orsini.
A marriage, let it be noted, between an old soldier of fifty and a girl of
sixteen. Reflect what that means: it means that this imperious woman is
soon treated like a chattel, made roughly to understand that her business
is to give the Duke an heir, not advice; that she must never ask
"wherefore this or that?" that she must courtesy before the Duke's
counsellors, his captains, his mistresses; that, at the least suspicion of
rebelliousness, she is subject to his foul words and blows; at the least
suspicion of infidelity, to be strangled or starved to death, or thrown
down an oubliette. Suppose that she know that her husband has taken it
into his head that she has looked too hard at this man or that, that one
of his lieutenants or one of his women have whispered that, after all, the
boy Bartolommeo might as soon be a Pico as an Orsini. Suppose she know
that she must strike or be struck? Why, she strikes, or gets some one to
strike for her. At what price? A promise of love, of love to a groom, the
son of a serf! Why, the dog must be mad or drunk to believe such a thing
possible; his very belief in anything so monstrous makes him worthy of
death. And then he dares to blab! This is much worse than Pico. Medea is
bound to defend her honour a second time; if she could stab Pico, she can
certainly stab this fellow, or have him stabbed.
Hounded by her husband's kinsmen, she takes refuge at Urbania. The
Duke, like every other man, falls wildly in love with Medea, and neglects
his wife; let us even go so far as to say, breaks his wife's heart. Is
this Medea's fault? Is it her fault that every stone that comes beneath
her chariot-wheels is crushed? Certainly not. Do you suppose that a woman
like Medea feels the smallest ill-will against a poor, craven Duchess
Maddalena? Why, she ignores her very existence. To suppose Medea a cruel
woman is as grotesque as to call her an immoral woman. Her fate is, sooner
or later, to triumph over her enemies, at all events to make their victory
almost a defeat; her magic faculty is to enslave all the men who come
across her path; all those who see her, love her, become her slaves; and
it is the destiny of all her slaves to perish. Her lovers, with the
exception of Duke Guidalfonso, all come to an untimely end; and in this
there is nothing unjust. The possession of a woman like Medea is a
happiness too great for a mortal man; it would turn his head, make him
forget even what he owed her; no man must survive long who conceives
himself to have a right over her; it is a kind of sacrilege. And only
death, the willingness to pay for such happiness by death, can at all make
a man worthy of being her lover; he must be willing to love and suffer and
die. This is the meaning of her device--"Amour Dure--Dure Amour." The love
of Medea da Carpi cannot fade, but the lover can die; it is a constant and
a cruel love.
Nov. 11th.--I was right, quite right in my idea. I have found--Oh, joy!
I treated the Vice-Prefect's son to a dinner of five courses at the
Trattoria La Stella d'Italia out of sheer jubilation--I have found in the
Archives, unknown, of course, to the Director, a heap of letters--letters
of Duke Robert about Medea da Carpi, letters of Medea herself! Yes,
Medea's own handwriting--a round, scholarly character, full of
abbreviations, with a Greek look about it, as befits a learned princess
who could read Plato as well as Petrarch. The letters are of little
importance, mere drafts of business letters for her secretary to copy,
during the time that she governed the poor weak Guidalfonso. But they are
her letters, and I can imagine almost that there hangs about these
mouldering pieces of paper a scent as of a woman's hair.
The few letters of Duke Robert show him in a new light. A cunning,
cold, but craven priest. He trembles at the bare thought of Medea--"la
pessima Medea"--worse than her namesake of Colchis, as he calls her. His
long clemency is a result of mere fear of laying violent hands upon her.
He fears her as something almost supernatural; he would have enjoyed
having had her burnt as a witch. After letter on letter, telling his
crony, Cardinal Sanseverino, at Rome his various precautions during her
lifetime--how he wears a jacket of mail under his coat; how he drinks only
milk from a cow which he has milked in his presence; how he tries his dog
with morsels of his food, lest it be poisoned; how he suspects the
wax-candles because of their peculiar smell; how he fears riding out lest
some one should frighten his horse and cause him to break his neck--after
all this, and when Medea has been in her grave two years, he tells his
correspondent of his fear of meeting the soul of Medea after his own
death, and chuckles over the ingenious device (concocted by his astrologer
and a certain Fra Gaudenzio, a Capuchin) by which he shall secure the
absolute peace of his soul until that of the wicked Medea be finally
"chained up in hell among the lakes of boiling pitch and the ice of Caina
described by the immortal bard"--old pedant! Here, then, is the
explanation of that silver image--quod vulgo dicitur idolino--which he
caused to be soldered into his effigy by Tassi. As long as the image of
his soul was attached to the image of his body, he should sleep awaiting
the Day of Judgment, fully convinced that Medea's soul will then be
properly tarred and feathered, while his--honest man!--will fly straight
to Paradise. And to think that, two weeks ago, I believed this man to be a
hero! Aha! my good Duke Robert, you shall be shown up in my history; and
no amount of silver idolinos shall save you from being heartily laughed
at!
Nov. 15th.--Strange! That idiot of a Prefect's son, who has heard me
talk a hundred times of Medea da Carpi, suddenly recollects that, when he
was a child at Urbania, his nurse used to threaten him with a visit from
Madonna Medea, who rode in the sky on a black he-goat. My Duchess Medea
turned into a bogey for naughty little boys!
Nov. 20th.--I have been going about with a Bavarian Professor of
medi¾val history, showing him all over the country. Among other places we
went to Rocca Sant' Elmo, to see the former villa of the Dukes of Urbania,
the villa where Medea was confined between the accession of Duke Robert
and the conspiracy of Marcantonio Frangipani, which caused her removal to
the nunnery immediately outside the town. A long ride up the desolate
Apennine valleys, bleak beyond words just now with their thin fringe of
oak scrub turned russet, thin patches of grass sered by the frost, the
last few yellow leaves of the poplars by the torrents shaking and
fluttering about in the chill Tramontana; the mountain-tops are wrapped in
thick grey cloud; to-morrow, if the wind continues, we shall see them
round masses of snow against the cold blue sky. Sant' Elmo is a wretched
hamlet high on the Apennine ridge, where the Italian vegetation is already
replaced by that of the North. You ride for miles through leafless
chestnut woods, the scent of the soaking brown leaves filling the air, the
roar of the torrent, turbid with autumn rains, rising from the precipice
below; then suddenly the leafless chestnut woods are replaced, as at
Vallombrosa, by a belt of black, dense fir plantations. Emerging from
these, you come to an open space, frozen blasted meadows, the rocks of
snow clad peak, the newly fallen snow, close above you; and in the midst,
on a knoll, with a gnarled larch on either side, the ducal villa of Sant'
Elmo, a big black stone box with a stone escutcheon, grated windows, and a
double flight of steps in front. It is now let out to the proprietor of
the neighbouring woods, who uses it for the storage of chestnuts, faggots,
and charcoal from the neighbouring ovens. We tied our horses to the iron
rings and entered: an old woman, with dishevelled hair, was alone in the
house. The villa is a mere hunting-lodge, built by Ottobuono IV., the
father of Dukes Guidalfonso and Robert, about 1530. Some of the rooms have
at one time been frescoed and panelled with oak carvings, but all this has
disappeared. Only, in one of the big rooms, there remains a large marble
fireplace, similar to those in the palace at Urbania, beautifully carved
with Cupids on a blue ground; a charming naked boy sustains a jar on
either side, one containing clove pinks, the other roses. The room was
filled with stacks of faggots.
We returned home late, my companion in excessively bad humour at the
fruitlessness of the expedition. We were caught in the skirt of a
snowstorm as we got into the chestnut woods. The sight of the snow falling
gently, of the earth and bushes whitened all round, made me feel back at
Posen, once more a child. I sang and shouted, to my companion's horror.
This will be a bad point against me if reported at Berlin. A historian of
twenty-four who shouts and sings, and that when another historian is
cursing at the snow and the bad roads! All night I lay awake watching the
embers of my wood fire, and thinking of Medea da Carpi mewed up, in
winter, in that solitude of Sant' Elmo, the firs groaning, the torrent
roaring, the snow falling all round; miles and miles away from human
creatures. I fancied I saw it all, and that I, somehow, was Marcantonio
Frangipani come to liberate her--or was it Prinzivalle degli Ordelaffi? I
suppose it was because of the long ride, the unaccustomed pricking feeling
of the snow in the air; or perhaps the punch which my professor insisted
on drinking after dinner.
Nov. 23rd.--Thank goodness, that Bavarian professor has finally
departed! Those days he spent here drove me nearly crazy. Talking over my
work, I told him one day my views on Medea da Carpi; whereupon he
condescended to answer that those were the usual tales due to the
mythopoeic (old idiot!) tendency of the Renaissance; that research would
disprove the greater part of them, as it had disproved the stories current
about the Borgias, &c.; that, moreover, such a woman as I made out was
psychologically and physiologically impossible. Would that one could say
as much of such professors as he and his fellows!
Nov. 24tlh.--I cannot get over my pleasure in being rid of that
imbecile; I felt as if I could have throttled him every time he spoke of
the Lady of my thoughts--for such she has become--Metea, as the animal
called her!
Nov. 30th.--I feel quite shaken at what has just happened; I am
beginning to fear that that old pedant was right in saying that it was bad
for me to live all alone in a strange country, that it would make me
morbid. It is ridiculous that I should be put into such a state of
excitement merely by the chance discovery of a portrait of a woman dead
these three hundred years. With the case of my uncle Ladislas, and other
suspicions of insanity in my family, I ought really to guard against such
foolish excitement.
Yet the incident was really dramatic, uncanny. I could have sworn that
I knew every picture in the palace here; and particularly every picture of
Her. Anyhow, this morning, as I was leaving the Archives, I passed through
one of the many small rooms--irregular-shaped closets--which fill up the
ins and outs of this curious palace, turreted like a French ch‰teau. I
must have passed through that closet before, for the view was so familiar
out of its window; just the particular bit of round tower in front, the
cypress on the other side of the ravine, the belfry beyond, and the piece
of the line of Monte Sant' Agata and the Leonessa, covered with snow,
against the sky. I suppose there must be twin rooms, and that I had got
into the wrong one; or rather, perhaps some shutter had been opened or
curtain withdrawn. As I was passing, my eye was caught by a very beautiful
old mirror-frame let into the brown and yellow inlaid wall. I approached,
and looking at the frame, looked also, mechanically, into the glass. I
gave a great start, and almost shrieked, I do believe--(it's lucky the
Munich professor is safe out of Urbania!). Behind my own image stood
another, a figure close to my shoulder, a face close to mine; and that
figure, that face, hers! Medea da Carpi's! I turned sharp round, as white,
I think, as the ghost I expected to see. On the wall opposite the mirror,
just a pace or two behind where I had been standing, hung a portrait. And
such a portrait!--Bronzino never painted a grander one. Against a
background of harsh, dark blue, there stands out the figure of the Duchess
(for it is Medea, the real Medea, a thousand times more real, individual,
and powerful than in the other portraits), seated stiffly in a high-backed
chair, sustained, as it were, almost rigid, by the stiff brocade of skirts
and stomacher, stiffer for plaques of embroidered silver flowers and rows
of seed pearl. The dress is, with its mixture of silver and pearl, of a
strange dull red, a wicked poppy-juice colour, against which the flesh of
the long, narrow hands with fringe-like fingers; of the long slender neck,
and the face with bared forehead, looks white and hard, like alabaster.
The face is the same as in the other portraits: the same rounded forehead,
with the short fleece-like, yellowish-red curls; the same beautifully
curved eyebrows, just barely marked; the same eyelids, a little tight
across the eyes; the same lips, a little tight across the mouth; but with
a purity of line, a dazzling splendour of skin, and intensity of look
immeasurably superior to all the other portraits.
She looks out of the frame with a cold, level glance; yet the lips
smile. One hand holds a dull-red rose; the other, long, narrow, tapering,
plays with a thick rope of silk and gold and jewels hanging from the
waist; round the throat, white as marble, partially confined in the tight
dull-red bodice, hangs a gold collar, with the device on alternate
enamelled medallions, "AMOUR DURE--DURE AMOUR."
On reflection, I see that I simply could never have been in that room
or closet before; I must have mistaken the door. But, although the
explanation is so simple, I still, after several hours, feel terribly
shaken in all my being. If I grow so excitable I shall have to go to Rome
at Christmas for a holiday. I feel as if some danger pursued me here (can
it be fever?); and yet, and yet, I don't see how I shall ever tear myself
away.
Dec. 10th.--I have made an effort, and accepted the Vice-Prefect's
son's invitation to see the oil-making at a villa of theirs near the
coast. The villa, or farm, is an old fortified, towered place, standing on
a hillside among olive-trees and little osier-bushes, which look like a
bright orange flame. The olives are squeezed in a tremendous black cellar,
like a prison: you see, by the faint white daylight, and the smoky yellow
flare of resin burning in pans, great white bullocks moving round a huge
millstone; vague figures working at pulleys and handles: it looks, to my
fancy, like some scene of the Inquisition. The Cavaliere regaled me with
his best wine and rusks. I took some long walks by the seaside; I had left
Urbania wrapped in snow-clouds; down on the coast there was a bright sun;
the sunshine, the sea, the bustle of the little port on the Adriatic
seemed to do me good. I came back to Urbania another man. Sor Asdrubale,
my landlord, poking about in slippers among the gilded chests, the Empire
sofas, the old cups and saucers and pictures which no one will buy,
congratulated me upon the improvement in my looks. "You work too much," he
says; "youth requires amusement, theatres, promenades, amori--it is time
enough to be serious when one is bald"--and he took off his greasy red
cap. Yes, I am better! and, as a result, I take to my work with delight
again. I will cut them out still, those wiseacres at Berlin!
Dec. 14th.--I don't think I have ever felt so happy about my work. I
see it all so well--that crafty, cowardly Duke Robert; that melancholy
Duchess Maddalena; that weak, showy, would-be chivalrous Duke Guidalfonso;
and above all, the splendid figure of Medea. I feel as if I were the
greatest historian of the age; and, at the same time, as if I were a boy
of twelve. It snowed yesterday for the first time in the city, for two
good hours. When it had done, I actually went into the square and taught
the ragamuffins to make a snow-man; no, a snow-woman; and I had the fancy
to call her Medea. "La pessima Medea!" cried one of the boys--"the one who
used to ride through the air on a goat?" "No, no," I said; "she was a
beautiful lady, the Duchess of Urbania, the most beautiful woman that ever
lived." I made her a crown of tinsel, and taught the boys to cry "Evviva,
Medea!" But one of them said, "She is a witch! She must be burnt!" At
which they all rushed to fetch burning faggots and tow; in a minute the
yelling demons had melted her down.
Dec. 15th.--What a goose I am, and to think I am twenty-four, and known
in literature! In my long walks I have composed to a tune (I don't know
what it is) which all the people are singing and whistling in the street
at present, a poem in frightful Italian, beginning "Medea, mia dea,"
calling on her in the name of her various lovers. I go about humming
between my teeth, "Why am I not Marcantonio? or Prinzivalle? or he of
Narni? or the good Duke Alfonso? that I might be beloved by thee, Medea,
mia dea," &c. &c. Awful rubbish! My landlord, I think, suspects that Medea
must be some lady I met while I was staying by the seaside. I am sure Sora
Serafina, Sora Lodovica, and Sora Adalgisa--the three Parc¾ or Norns, as I
call them--have some such notion. This afternoon, at dusk, while tidying
my room, Sora Lodovica said to me, "How beautifully the Signorino has
taken to singing!" I was scarcely aware that I had been vociferating,
"Vieni, Medea, mia dea," while the old lady bobbed about making up my
fire. I stopped; a nice reputation I shall get! I thought, and all this
will somehow get to Rome, and thence to Berlin. Sora Lodovica was leaning
out of the window, pulling in the iron hook of the shrine-lamp which marks
Sor Asdrubale's house. As she was trimming the lamp previous to swinging
it out again, she said in her odd, prudish little way, "You are wrong to
stop singing, my son" (she varies between calling me Signor Professore and
such terms of affection as "Nino," "Viscere mie," &c.); "you are wrong to
stop singing, for there is a young lady there in the street who has
actually stopped to listen to you."
I ran to the window. A woman, wrapped in a black shawl, was standing in
an archway, looking up to the window.
"Eh, eh! the Signor Professore has admirers," said Sora Lodovica.
"Medea, mia dea!" I burst out as loud as I could, with a boy's pleasure
in disconcerting the inquisitive passer-by. She turned suddenly round to
go away, waving her hand at me; at that moment Sora Lodovica swung the
shrine-lamp back into its place. A stream of light fell across the street.
I felt myself grow quite cold; the face of the woman outside was that of
Medea da Carpi!
What a fool I am, to be sure!
Dec. 17th.--I fear that my craze about Medea da Carpi has become well
known, thanks to my silly talk and idiotic songs. That Vice-Prefect's
son--or the assistant at the Archives, or perhaps some of the company at
the Contessa's, is trying to play me a trick! But take care, my good
ladies and gentlemen, I shall pay you out in your own coin! Imagine my
feelings when, this morning, I found on my desk a folded letter addressed
to me in a curious handwriting which seemed strangely familiar to me, and
which, after a moment, I recognised as that of the letters of Medea da
Carpi at the Archives. It gave me a horrible shock. My next idea was that
it must be a present from some one who knew my interest in Medea--a
genuine letter of hers on which some idiot had written my address instead
of putting it into an envelope. But it was addressed to me, written to me,
no old letter; merely four lines, which ran as follows:--
"To SPIRIDION.--A person who knows the interest you bear her will be at
the Church of San Giovanni Decollato this evening at nine. Look out, in
the left aisle, for a lady wearing a black mantle, and holding a rose."
By this time I understood that I was the object of a conspiracy, the
victim of a hoax. I turned the letter round and round. It was written on
paper such as was made in the sixteenth century, and in an extraordinarily
precise imitation of Medea da Carpi's characters. Who had written it? I
thought over all the possible people. On the whole, it must be the
Vice-Prefect's son, perhaps in combination with his lady-love, the
Countess. They must have torn a blank page off some old letter; but that
either of them should have had the ingenuity of inventing such a hoax, or
the power of committing such a forgery, astounds me beyond measure. There
is more in these people than I should have guessed. How pay them off? By
taking no notice of the letter? Dignified, but dull. No, I will go;
perhaps some one will be there, and I will mystify them in their turn. Or,
if no one is there, how I shall crow over them for their imperfectly
carried out plot! Perhaps this is some folly of the Cavalier Muzio's to
bring me into the presence of some lady whom he destines to be the flame
of my future amori. That is likely enough. And it would be too idiotic and
professorial to refuse such an invitation; the lady must be worth knowing
who can forge sixteenth-century letters like this, for I am sure that
languid swell Muzio never could. I will go! By Heaven! I'll pay them back
in their own coin! It is now five--how long these days are!
Dec. 18th.--Am I mad? Or are there really ghosts? That adventure of
last night has shaken me to the very depth of my soul.
I went at nine, as the mysterious letter had bid me. It was bitterly
cold, and the air full of fog and sleet; not a shop open, not a window
unshuttered, not a creature visible; the narrow black streets, precipitous
between their high walls and under their lofty archways, were only the
blacker for the dull light of an oil-lamp here and there, with its
flickering yellow reflection on the wet flags. San Giovanni Decollato is a
little church, or rather oratory, which I have always hitherto seen shut
up (as so many churches here are shut up except on great festivals); and
situate behind the ducal palace, on a sharp ascent, and forming the
bifurcation of two steep paved lanes. I have passed by the place a hundred
times, and scarcely noticed the little church, except for the marble high
relief over the door, showing the grizzly head of the Baptist in the
charger, and for the iron cage close by, in which were formerly exposed
the heads of criminals; the decapitated, or, as they call him here,
decollated, John the Baptist, being apparently the patron of axe and
block.
A few strides took me from my lodgings to San Giovanni Decollato. I
confess I was excited; one is not twenty-four and a Pole for nothing. On
getting to the kind of little platform at the bifurcation of the two
precipitous streets, I found, to my surprise, that the windows of the
church or oratory were not lighted, and that the door was locked! So this
was the precious joke that had been played upon me; to send me on a bitter
cold, sleety night, to a church which was shut up and had perhaps been
shut up for years! I don't know what I couldn't have done in that moment
of rage; I felt inclined to break open the church door, or to go and pull
the Vice-Prefect's son out of bed (for I felt sure that the joke was his).
I determined upon the latter course; and was walking towards his door,
along the black alley to the left of the church, when I was suddenly
stopped by the sound as of an organ close by; an organ, yes, quite
plainly, and the voice of choristers and the drone of a litany. So the
church was not shut, after all! I retraced my steps to the top of the
lane. All was dark and in complete silence. Suddenly there came again a
faint gust of organ and voices. I listened; it clearly came from the other
lane, the one on the right-hand side. Was there, perhaps, another door
there? I passed beneath the archway, and descended a little way in the
direction whence the sounds seemed to come. But no door, no light, only
the black walls, the black wet flags, with their faint yellow reflec-
tions of flickering oil-lamps; moreover, complete silence. I stopped a
minute, and then the chant rose again; this time it seemed to me most
certainly from the lane I had just left. I went back--nothing. Thus
backwards and forwards, the sounds always beckoning, as it were, one way,
only to beckon me back, vainly, to the other.
At last I lost patience; and I felt a sort of creeping terror, which
only a violent action could dispel. If the mysterious sounds came neither
from the street to the right, nor from the street to the left, they could
come only from the church. Half-maddened, I rushed up the two or three
steps, and prepared to wrench the door open with a tremendous effort. To
my amazement, it opened with the greatest ease. I entered, and the sounds
of the litany met me louder than before, as I paused a moment between the
outer door and the heavy leathern curtain. I raised the latter and crept
in. The altar was brilliantly illuminated with tapers and garlands of
chandeliers; this was evidently some evening service connected with
Christmas. The nave and aisles were comparatively dark, and about
half-full. I elbowed my way along the right aisle towards the altar. When
my eyes had got accustomed to the unexpected light, I began to look round
me, and with a beating heart. The idea that all this was a hoax, that I
should meet merely some acquaintance of my friend the Cavaliere's, had
somehow departed: I looked about. The people were all wrapped up, the men
in big cloaks, the women in woollen veils and mantles. The body of the
church was comparatively dark, and I could not make out anything very
clearly, but it seemed to me, somehow, as if, under the cloaks and veils,
these people were dressed in a rather extraordinary fashion. The man in
front of me, I remarked, showed yellow stockings beneath his cloak; a
woman, hard by, a red bodice, laced behind with gold tags. Could these be
peasants from some remote part come for the Christmas festivities, or did
the inhabitants of Urbania don some old-fashioned garb in honour of
Christmas?
As I was wondering, my eye suddenly caught that of a woman standing in
the opposite aisle, close to the altar, and in the full blaze of its
lights. She was wrapped in black, but held, in a very conspicuous way, a
red rose, an unknown luxury at this time of the year in a place like
Urbania. She evidently saw me, and turning even more fully into the light,
she loosened her heavy black cloak, displaying a dress of deep red, with
gleams of silver and gold embroideries; she turned her face towards me;
the full blaze of the chandeliers and tapers fell upon it. It was the face
of Medea da Carpi! I dashed across the nave, pushing people roughly aside,
or rather, it seemed to me, passing through impalpable bodies. But the
lady turned and walked rapidly down the aisle towards the door. I followed
close upon her, but somehow I could not get up with her. Once, at the
curtain, she turned round again. She was within a few paces of me. Yes, it
was Medea. Medea herself, no mistake, no delusion, no sham; the oval face,
the lips tightened over the mouth, the eyelids tight over the corner of
the eyes, the exquisite alabaster complexion! She raised the curtain and
glided out. I followed; the curtain alone separated me from her. I saw the
wooden door swing to behind her. One step ahead of me! I tore open the
door; she must be on the steps, within reach of my arm!
I stood outside the church. All was empty, merely the wet pavement and
the yellow reflections in the pools: a sudden cold seized me; I could not
go on. I tried to re-enter the church; it was shut. I rushed home, my hair
standing on end, and trembling in all my limbs, and remained for an hour
like a maniac. Is it a delusion? Am I too going mad? O God, God! am I
going mad?
Dec. 19th.--A brilliant, sunny day; all the black snow-slush has
disappeared out of the town, off the bushes and trees. The snow-clad
mountains sparkle against the bright blue sky. A Sunday, and Sunday
weather; all the bells are ringing for the approach of Christmas. They are
preparing for a kind of fair in the square with the colonnade, putting up
booths filled with coloured cotton and woollen ware, bright shawls and
kerchiefs, mirrors, ribbons, brilliant pewter lamps; the whole turn-out of
the pedlar in "Winter's Tale." The pork-shops are all garlanded with green
and with paper flowers, the hams and cheeses stuck full of little flags
and green twigs. I strolled out to see the cattle-fair outside the gate; a
forest of interlacing horns, an ocean of lowing and stamping: hundreds of
immense white bullocks, with horns a yard long and red tassels, packed
close together on the little piazza d'armi under the city walls. Bah! why
do I write this trash? What's the use of it all? While I am forcing myself
to write about bells, and Christmas festivities, and cattle-fairs, one
idea goes on like a bell within me: Medea, Medea! Have I really seen her,
or am I mad?
Two hours later.--That Church of San Giovanni Decollato--so my landlord
informs me--has not been made use of within the memory of man. Could it
have been all a hallucination or a dream--perhaps a dream dreamed that
night? I have been out again to look at that church. There it is, at the
bifurcation of the two steep lanes, with its bas-relief of the Baptist's
head over the door. The door does look as if it had not been opened for
years. I can see the cobwebs in the window-panes; it does look as if, as
Sor Asdrubale says, only rats and spiders congregated within it. And
yet--and yet; I have so clear a remembrance, so distinct a consciousness
of it all. There was a picture of the daughter of Herodias dancing, upon
the altar; I remember her white turban with a scarlet tuft of feathers,
and Herod's blue caftan; I remember the shape of the central chandelier;
it swung round slowly, and one of the wax lights had got bent almost in
two by the heat and draught.
Things, all these, which I may have seen elsewhere, stored unawares in
my brain, and which may have come out, somehow, in a dream; I have heard
physiologists allude to such things. I will go again: if the church be
shut, why then it must have been a dream, a vision, the result of
over-excitement. I must leave at once for Rome and see doctors, for I am
afraid of going mad. If, on the other hand--pshaw! there is no other hand
in such a case. Yet if there were--why then, I should really have seen
Medea; I might see her again; speak to her. The mere thought sets my blood
in a whirl, not with horror, but with . . . I know not what to call it.
The feeling terrifies me, but it is delicious. Idiot! There is some little
coil of my brain, the twentieth of a hair's-breadth out of order--that's
all!
Dec. 20th.--I have been again; I have heard the music; I have been
inside the church; I have seen Her! I can no longer doubt my senses. Why
should I? Those pedants say that the dead are dead, the past is past. For
them, yes; but why for me?--why for a man who loves, who is consumed with
the love of a woman?--a woman who, indeed--yes, let me finish the
sentence. Why should there not be ghosts to such as can see them? Why
should she not return to the earth, if she knows that it contains a man
who thinks of, desires, only her?
A hallucination? Why, I saw her, as I see this paper that I write upon;
standing there, in the full blaze of the altar. Why, I heard the rustle of
her skirts, I smelt the scent of her hair, I raised the curtain which was
shaking from her touch. Again I missed her. But this time, as I rushed out
into the empty moonlit street, I found upon the church steps a rose--the
rose which I had seen in her hand the moment before--I felt it, smelt it;
a rose, a real, living rose, dark red and only just plucked. I put it into
water when I returned, after having kissed it, who knows how many times? I
placed it on the top of the cupboard; I determined not to look at it for
twenty-four hours lest it should be a delusion. But I must see it again; I
must.... Good Heavens! this is horrible, horrible; if I had found a
skeleton it could not have been worse! The rose, which last night seemed
freshly plucked, full of colour and perfume, is brown, dry--a thing kept
for centuries between the leaves of a book--it has crumbled into dust
between my fingers. Horrible, horrible! But why so, pray? Did I not know
that I was in love with a woman dead three hundred years? If I wanted
fresh roses which bloomed yesterday, the Countess Fiammetta or any little
sempstress in Urbania might have given them me. What if the rose has
fallen to dust? If only I could hold Medea in my arms as I held it in my
fingers, kiss her lips as I kissed its petals, should I not be satisfied
if she too were to fall to dust the next moment, if I were to fall to dust
myself?
Dec. 22nd, Eleven at night.--I have seen her once more!--almost spoken
to her. I have been promised her love! Ah, Spiridion! you were right when
you felt that you were not made for any earthly amori. At the usual hour I
betook myself this evening to San Giovanni Decollato. A bright winter
night; the high houses and belfries standing out against a deep blue
heaven luminous, shimmering like steel with myriads of stars; the moon has
not yet risen. There was no light in the windows; but, after a little
effort, the door opened and I entered the church, the altar, as usual,
brilliantly illuminated. It struck me suddenly that all this crowd of men
and women standing all round, these priests chanting and moving about the
altar, were dead--that they did not exist for any man save me. I touched,
as if by accident, the hand of my neighbour; it was cold, like wet clay.
He turned round, but did not seem to see me: his face was ashy, and his
eyes staring, fixed, like those of a blind man or a corpse. I felt as if I
must rush out. But at that moment my eye fell upon Her, standing as usual
by the altar steps, wrapped in a black mantle, in the full blaze of the
lights. She turned round; the light fell straight upon her face, the face
with the delicate features, the eyelids and lips a little tight, the
alabaster skin faintly tinged with pale pink. Our eyes met.
I pushed my way across the nave towards where she stood by the altar
steps; she turned quickly down the aisle, and I after her. Once or twice
she lingered, and I thought I should overtake her; but again, when, not a
second after the door had closed upon her, I stepped out into the street,
she had vanished. On the church step lay something white. It was not a
flower this time, but a letter. I rushed back to the church to read it;
but the church was fast shut, as if it had not been opened for years. I
could not see by the flickering shrine-lamps--I rushed home, lit my lamp,
pulled the letter from my breast. I have it before me. The handwriting is
hers; the same as in the Archives, the same as in that first letter:--
"To SPIRIDION.--Let thy courage be equal to thy love, and thy love
shall be rewarded. On the night preceding Christmas, take a hatchet and
saw; cut boldly into the body of the bronze rider who stands in the Corte,
on the left side, near the waist. Saw open the body, and within it thou
wilt find the silver effigy of a winged genius. Take it out, hack it into
a hundred pieces, and fling them in all directions, so that the winds may
sweep them away. That night she whom thou lovest will come to reward thy
fidelity."
On the brownish wax is the device-- "AMOUR DURE--DURE AMOUR."
Dec. 23rd.--So it is true! I was reserved for something wonderful in
this world. I have at last found that after which my soul has been
straining. Ambition, love of art, love of Italy, these things which have
occupied my spirit, and have yet left me continually unsatisfied, these
were none of them my real destiny. I have sought for life, thirsting for
it as a man in the desert thirsts for a well; but the life of the senses
of other youths, the life of the intellect of other men, have never slaked
that thirst. Shall life for me mean the love of a dead woman? We smile at
what we choose to call the superstition of the past, forgetting that all
our vaunted science of to-day may seem just such another superstition to
the men of the future; but why should the present be right and the past
wrong? The men who painted the pictures and built the palaces of three
hundred years ago were certainly of as delicate fibre, of as keen reason,
as ourselves, who merely print calico and build locomotives. What makes me
think this, is that I have been calculating my nativity by help of an old
book belonging to Sor Asdrubale--and see, my horoscope tallies almost
exactly with that of Medea da Carpi, as given by a chronicler. May this
explain? No, no; all is explained by the fact that the first time I read
of this woman's career, the first time I saw her portrait, I loved her,
though I hid my love to myself in the garb of historical interest.
Historical interest indeed!
I have got the hatchet and the saw. I bought the saw of a poor joiner,
in a village some miles off; he did not understand at first what I meant,
and I think he thought me mad; perhaps I am. But if madness means the
happiness of one's life, what of it? The hatchet I saw lying in a
timber-yard, where they prepare the great trunks of the fir-trees which
grow high on the Apennines of Sant' Elmo. There was no one in the yard,
and I could not resist the temptation; I handled the thing, tried its
edge, and stole it. This is the first time in my life that I have been a
thief; why did I not go into a shop and buy a hatchet? I don't know; I
seemed unable to resist the sight of the shining blade. What I am going to
do is, I suppose, an act of vandalism; and certainly I have no right to
spoil the property of this city of Urbania. But I wish no harm either to
the statue or the city; if I could plaster up the bronze, I would do so
willingly. But I must obey Her; I must avenge Her; I must get at that
silver image which Robert of Montemurlo had made and consecrated in order
that his cowardly soul might sleep in peace, and not encounter that of the
being whom he dreaded most in the world. Aha! Duke Robert, you forced her
to die unshriven, and you stuck the image of your soul into the image of
your body, thinking thereby that, while she suffered the tortures of Hell,
you would rest in peace, until your well-scoured little soul might fly
straight up to Paradise;--you were afraid of Her when both of you should
be dead, and thought yourself very clever to have prepared for all
emergencies! Not so, Serene Highness. You too shall taste what it is to
wander after death, and to meet the dead whom one has injured.
What an interminable day! But I shall see her again to-night.
Eleven o'clock.--No; the church was fast closed; the spell had ceased.
Until to-morrow I shall not see her. But to-morrow! Ah, Medea! did any of
thy lovers love thee as I do?
Twenty-four hours more till the moment of happiness--the moment for
which I seem to have been waiting all my life. And after that, what next?
Yes, I see it plainer every minute; after that, nothing more. All those
who loved Medea da Carpi, who loved and who served her, died:
Giovanfrancesco Pico, her first husband, whom she left stabbed in the
castle from which she fled; Stimigliano, who died of poison; the groom who
gave him the poison, cut down by her orders; Oliverotto da Narni,
Marcantonio Frangipani, and that poor boy of the Ordelaffi, who had never
even looked upon her face, and whose only reward was that handkerchief
with which the hangman wiped the sweat off his face, when he was one mass
of broken limbs and torn flesh: all had to die, and I shall die also.
The love of such a woman is enough, and is fatal--"Amour Dure," as her
device says. I shall die also. But why not? Would it be possible to live
in order to love another woman? Nay, would it be possible to drag on a
life like this one after the happiness of to-morrow? Impossible; the
others died, and I must die. I always felt that I should not live long; a
gipsy in Poland told me once that I had in my hand the cut-line which
signifies a violent death. I might have ended in a duel with some
brother-student, or in a railway accident. No, no; my death will not be of
that sort! Death--and is not she also dead? What strange vistas does such
a thought not open! Then the others--Pico, the Groom, Stimigliano,
Oliverotto, Frangipani, Prinzivalle degli Ordelaffi--will they all be
there? But she shall love me best--me by whom she has been loved after she
has been three hundred years in the grave!
Dec. 24th.--I have made all my arrangements. To-night at eleven I slip
out; Sor Asdrubale and his sisters will be sound asleep. I have questioned
them; their fear of rheumatism prevents their attending midnight mass.
Luckily there are no churches between this and the Corte; whatever
movement Christmas night may entail will be a good way off. The
Vice-Prefect's rooms are on the other side of the palace; the rest of the
square is taken up with state-rooms, archives, and empty stables and
coach-houses of the palace. Besides, I shall be quick at my work.
I have tried my saw on a stout bronze vase I bought of Sor Asdrubale;
and the bronze of the statue, hollow and worn away by rust (I have even
noticed holes), cannot resist very much, especially after a blow with the
sharp hatchet. I have put my papers in order, for the benefit of the
Government which has sent me hither. I am sorry to have defrauded them of
their "History of Urbania." To pass the endless day and calm the fever of
impatience, I have just taken a long walk. This is the coldest day we have
had. The bright sun does not warm in the least, but seems only to increase
the impression of cold, to make the snow on the mountains glitter, the
blue air to sparkle like steel. The few people who are out are muffled to
the nose, and carry earthenware braziers beneath their cloaks; long
icicles hang from the fountain with the figure of Mercury upon it; one can
imagine the wolves trooping down through the dry scrub and beleaguering
this town. Somehow this cold makes me feel wonderfully calm--it seems to
bring back to me my boyhood.
As I walked up the rough, steep, paved alleys, slippery with frost, and
with their vista of snow mountains against the sky, and passed by the
church steps strewn with box and laurel, with the faint smell of incense
coming out, there returned to me--I know not why--the recollection, almost
the sensation, of those Christmas Eves long ago at Posen and Breslau, when
I walked as a child along the wide streets, peeping into the windows where
they were beginning to light the tapers of the Christmas-trees, and
wondering whether I too, on returning home, should be let into a wonderful
room all blazing with lights and gilded nuts and glass beads. They are
hanging the last strings of those blue and red metallic beads, fastening
on the last gilded and silvered walnuts on the trees out there at home in
the North; they are lighting the blue and red tapers; the wax is beginning
to run on to the beautiful spruce green branches; the children are waiting
with beating hearts behind the door, to be told that the Christ-Child has
been. And I, for what am I waiting? I don't know; all seems a dream;
everything vague and unsubstantial about me, as if time had ceased,
nothing could happen, my own desires and hopes were all dead, myself
absorbed into I know not what passive dreamland. Do I long for to-night?
Do I dread it? Will to-night ever come? Do I feel anything, does anything
exist all round me? I sit and seem to see that street at Posen, the wide
street with the windows illuminated by the Christmas lights, the green
fir-branches grazing the window-panes.
Christmas Eve, Midnight.--I have done it. I slipped out noiselessly.
Sor Asdrubale and his sisters were fast asleep. I feared I had waked them,
for my hatchet fell as I was passing through the principal room where my
landlord keeps his curiosities for sale; it struck against some old armour
which he has been piecing. I heard him exclaim, half in his sleep; and
blew out my light and hid in the stairs. He came out in his dressing-gown,
but finding no one, went back to bed again. "Some cat, no doubt!" he said.
I closed the house door softly behind me. The sky had become stormy since
the afternoon, luminous with the full moon, but strewn with grey and
buff-coloured vapours; every now and then the moon disappeared entirely.
Not a creature abroad; the tall gaunt houses staring in the moonlight.
I know not why, I took a roundabout way to the Corte, past one or two
church doors, whence issued the faint flicker of midnight mass. For a
moment I felt a temptation to enter one of then; but something seemed to
restrain me. I caught snatches of the Christmas hymn. I felt myself
beginning to be unnerved, and hastened towards the Corte. As I passed
under the portico at San Francesco I heard steps behind me; it seemed to
me that I was followed. I stopped to let the other pass. As he approached
his pace flagged; he passed close by me and murmured, "Do not go: I am
Giovanfrancesco Pico." I turned round; he was gone. A coldness numbed me;
but I hastened on.
Behind the cathedral apse, in a narrow lane, I saw a man leaning
against a wall. The moonlight was full upon him; it seemed to me that his
face, with a thin pointed beard, was streaming with blood. I quickened my
pace; but as I grazed by him he whispered, "Do not obey her; return home:
I am Marcantonio Frangipani." My teeth chattered, but I hurried along the
narrow lane, with the moonlight blue upon the white walls.
At last I saw the Corte before me: the square was flooded with
moonlight, the windows of the palace seemed brightly illuminated, and the
statue of Duke Robert, shimmering green, seemed advancing towards me on
its horse. I came into the shadow. I had to pass beneath an archway. There
started a figure as if out of the wall, and barred my passage with his
outstretched cloaked arm. I tried to pass. He seized me by the arm, and
his grasp was like a weight of ice. "You shall not pass!" he cried, and,
as the moon came out once more, I saw his face, ghastly white and bound
with an embroidered kerchief; he seemed almost a child. "You shall not
pass!" he cried; "you shall not have her! She is mine, and mine alone! I
am Prinzivalle degli Ordelaffi." I felt his ice-cold clutch, but with my
other arm I laid about me wildly with the hatchet which I carried beneath
my cloak. The hatchet struck the wall and rang upon the stone. He had
vanished.
I hurried on. I did it. I cut open the bronze; I sawed it into a wider
gash. I tore out the silver image, and hacked it into innumerable pieces.
As I scattered the last fragments about, the moon was suddenly veiled; a
great wind arose, howling down the square; it seemed to me that the earth
shook. I threw down the hatchet and the saw, and fled home. I felt
pursued, as if by the tramp of hundreds of invisible horsemen.
Now I am calm. It is midnight; another moment and she will be here!
Patience, my heart! I hear it beating loud. I trust that no one will
accuse poor Sor Asdrubale. I will write a letter to the authorities to
declare his innocence should anything happen.... One! the clock in the
palace tower has just struck.... "I hereby certify that, should anything
happen this night to me, Spiridion Trepka, no one but myself is to be held
..." A step on the staircase! It is she! it is she! At last, Medea, Medea!
Ah! AMOUR DURE--DURE AMOUR!
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NOTE.--Here
ends the diary of the late Spiridion Trepka The chief newspapers of the
province of Umbria informed the public that, on Christmas morning of the
year 1885, the bronze equestrian statue of Robert II. had been found
grievously mutilated; and that Professor Spiridion Trepka of Posen, in the
German Empire, had been discovered dead of a stab in the region of the
heart, given by an unknown hand |